Depression and pigging out are buddies. The third wheel is Alcohol, but not an unwelcome member of the trinity. I think the combination of the 3 is just not a good thing, one feeds off of the other - especially for me. I'm renewing my energy to back off the comfort food and the alcohol.
It's so hard to do this when we need so much comfort right now. We must look to another outlet for comfort other than food and alcohol and giving in to our depression about Dolores. I just have to force us to eat right, get some exercise and drink lots of water. This sadness is weighing me down so much that I can hardly walk up the stairs at work but I have to try and try and try. It's unacceptable to lay down and die because our mother died. We have to keep going on even when we don't want to.
Tonight I had some energy so I made some tacos in soft tortilla shells with cheese, onion, tomato and light sour cream. I served it with corn and fat free spicy refried beans. It was very good. I enjoyed cooking it too.
I haven't mentioned this before but since Dolores passed away, we are now parents to her 2 cats, Baby - a boy, and Dolly - a girl. Aaron grew up with cats but I'm learning about them now. I am allergic so I saw an Allergist today. I will soon be on allergy injections to desensitize myself so I can spend time with them. It will be worth it. They are both so loving, especially Baby. He's 16 years old and a lover. Dolly is about 7 years old. Dolores adopted her after she was rescued from being abused. She did such great work with her over the past couple of years. Dolly has really come a long way and is trusting again. I'm also learning about their food and what they like to eat and shouldn't eat. It's been an experience and it seems that now as with all new parents, our lives revolve around those that are completely depedent on us.
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